Elohor!
Death did not end you!
Elohor!!!
I never believed I would be doing this any time soon!
It’s heartbreaking!
I cry uncontrollably, how you died hurt me more than the fact that you are dead!
You don’t deserve to die! No, at least not like this!!
I’m sure if Elohor could talk to me right now! She would say “Wrap it up”
So Yhh!! I’m trying to wrap it up!
I am going to wrap it all up!!
But,
It’s hard to wrap it up
It’s difficult to forget your impact
It’s crazy to accept that you are dead!
I can’t even believe I’m writing about you in the past tense!
Elohor, I strolled into your life and you gave me access!
You held my hand!
You spoon-fed me!!
Elohor, you would always say, “I’m tired of spoonfeeding you,” and then go ahead and spoon-feed me again. lol!
Elohor you were are such a light.
Elohor you are such an inspiration!
This is one of our earlier chats!!
I didn’t know what you saw in me that year, but I see it now!
You believed in me even before I could believe in myself!
You were strict with me when you needed to be!
I violated you over and over again! And you still drew me close.
You gave me a lot of privileges.
You loved me like I was your own!!
Thank you!!
I know I told you how much you mean to me when you were here,
…..that consoles me.
I never hesitated to serve you because I was keyed into your vision!
I believed in you!!
You carried so much and I can’t believe it is all gone!!
I don’t know if I am angry or sad!
Angry at the dreams you dreamt that couldn’t come out to play.
Angry about the life you could have lived.
Angry at the fact that you had so much to give the world! And the world needed you Elohor!!
This world needed you!!
The energy!
The intelligence!
The structure!
The audacity!
You had it all, you worked so hard!!!
Hey Elohor, I had almost 7k views on my newsletter last year. You did that, Elohor. You told me to start writing on substack and it has been an integral part of me.
You changed your life and the lives of the people around you!!
You were bigger and greater than you knew!!!
Just 29! And you did so much!!
You lived Elohor! You lived!!!
Everyone says you are resting!
Elohor are you actually resting?
Are you? Would you have chosen rest?
I don’t know how to think about your death!
But it is well! And I am wrapping it up!!!
You are great! Even in death!
I love you!
I adore you!
Even in death, I am inspired by you.
You are loved Elohor!
Everyone is talking about you! I know you are not surprised by this.
You built relationships that even death can’t break!
You were in people’s lives in different ways!
But you know what is constant? You showed up for people, even those outside your circle!!
You are magnificent!
Elohor, you won! You won!
Death did not end you.
Fly Elohor! Good night